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trigger warning - there are people working in mental health like this!



she said she was an out of work doctor who liked Trump but i thought she's sexy & there aren't many fit single women my age up for it so i thought fuck it long shot but no more long shot than anything eh? so i thought: second date afterall i'm pretty fucked up frustrated & lonely

i'd told her last week when we bumped into one another that i had schizoaffective disorder complex post traumatic stress disorder & severe anxiety i said let's just not talk politics i like ur energy

second date she starts talking how she likes normal people how she's worked in psychiatry as a doctor & she's she's 100% straight & homosexuality is a mental illness affecting only 2% of the population* i was laughing hysterically by now & said man u should've gone to my boys school u would've felt right at home now undergoing investigation for torture so fucked up none of us can speak & no one in my year group i knew are in touch with the school so i can't touch base the school's setting up a memorial garden to healing for the survivors of those dark years

still i was in freeze response laughing hysterically as she said the most evil people in the world are left handed homosexual schizophrenics i'm not shittin ya i'm having an anxiety attack coz it felt like school being labelled a poofter for being artistically gifted & fey & having a prepubescent voice that made me the soloist in classical school choir of 100 from school of 1000 bayside warnies a sportschool great bowler

i got up & fortunately a young angel offered me a cigarette & ordered a glass of water & kindly said to her you've got nice energy but we have nothing in common but all the best with tonight's dinner party as i headed home to my bedsit to smoke rerolled bumpers food scraps & listen to reggae indifferent to my usual nonplussment at cruel absurd world

nice tits though



amusing post script to cheer all us crazies up: i was wearing a tracksuit plus a black catsuit top coz i've lost my winter coat a gift light women's scarf lets be honest mens fashion is pretty dull to make an understatment & in trad chinese medicine i have a yin deficiency so i look to the feminine to rebalance me

as they say in glasgow: if u didn't laugh ud cry!

i do both often

the tears may come

but fuck it

i not dignifying the event with getting serious about it trigger warnings be damned respect i got disassociaton

i being unapologetically the freak that i am the good the bad & the ugly!

smoking with my left hand 🤣





*abs stated 8.5% for 16 to 34 year olds & growing



pps

man i miss the one i love she's the only one for me 🥹



ppps

due to raised insta profile, was it a set up?

quite possibly

or compellingly proximal

if not a set up, why did she say her name as we parted?

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