Mel From Melbourne - Music & Words

  the trials of mental illness it's a drag paranoia eased for time by a quiet place with a friend or vindicated by being kicked out of places but only for a time then it worsens censure & sluts hurt when i mean well i just have a mental illness do you kick out other people with more visible disabilities isolation exacerbates paranoia but so too so many quiet australians as sco mo was fond of saying swinging voters enablers of status quo's evils & spies what the heal arr they whispering about? are we in a democracy or not?

  my quest for a better world a world self more in tune with life casts a shadow over my room at times the morr i strive to be superhuman or challenge orthodoxy as to who we are yes & well i know thanatos though i do not dither there it visits it leaves i live with ghosts indigenous & non indigenous such is Naarm but i am making peace with the dead that their peace allow more light for us to see because even the feral adapts hung to survive not torture it's gone on way too long stop as a kind of healing things are not symmetrical in my world sure it's theory but i like u am unique models mannequins are not living beings we are not our shell look at ur scans & what they omits our loves passions hurts dreams love letters & even requests to extend payment on a water bill who owns water? how?

  tea i felt freer when my loved ones were alive or hadn't moved away i felt freer in belonging for isolation is a prison that creates paranoia but love is hard found in thr flesh not a disembodied voice or code telepathy is freedom telepathy with sympathy not more knowledge of used defensively in the hostile culture wars & cold algorithms the teas gone cold on a rainy day i guess ill stay inside alone in my prison & see to fly through reverie like an arctic

  when i am happy i am so unreservedly non analytically what's so good about anal? i gogglegiggle

  on sexuality: there's attraction there's repulsion there's work & then there's those crazy horny days

trigger warning - there are people working in mental health like this! she said she was an out of work doctor who liked Trump but i thought she's sexy & there aren't many fit single women my age up for it so i thought fuck it long shot but no more long shot than anything eh? so i thought: second date afterall i'm pretty fucked up frustrated & lonely i'd told her last week when we bumped into one another that i had schizoaffective disorder complex post traumatic stress disorder & severe anxiety i said let's just not talk politics i like ur energy second date she starts talking how she likes normal people how she's worked in psychiatry as a doctor & she's she's 100% straight & homosexuality is a mental illness affecting only 2% of the population* i was laughing hysterically by now & said man u should've gone to my boys school u would've felt right at home now undergoing investigation for torture so fucked up none of us can s...