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Doubt

 

Doubt

 

& so I’m talking to a lovely couple

& I’m telling them

How having had a psychosis in the past

I’m never 100% sure anymore

That I’m not imagining the surroundings & the people

& that really I’m in a psychiatric hospital

Talking to nurses or doctors

Not people in a pub

Or even talking to myself

In my cell

That I’m still psychotic

& far from reality

 

It’s a humbling experience

To acknowledge that what you thought was real

Was actually a delusion

That you never anymore proceed with 100% surety

& yet as Immanuel Kant pointed out

One is always taking a leap of faith in the act of reasoning about life

Even if the reasoning is doubt

 

 

Published & Copyright Malachi Doyle 2025.

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