On not having a child

 

On not having a child

 

I never found a woman to have a baby with

But when I see animals with their kids I melt

They’ve always been too volatile, too needy, too old, too angry, too sick

I never found a woman to have a baby with

 

It’s big thing having a child

I’m not just a hustler, not just a dude

I understand why my mother tried to abort me

Victim of abuse, violence, who’d blame her?

 

Somehow I survived

I’ve put on audio what happened

But it’s not fit for print

I wanted a happy home, else no more players introduced

I never found a woman to have a baby with

 

No child conceived to complete a woman’s portfolio

I wanted a child I could teach to about the movements of the tides

I wanted a child who’d know they were always home on Earth

But it never worked out, it was always perilous, no love

I never found a woman to have a baby with

 

 

Published & Copyright Malachi Doyle 2025.