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Me & my dad

 

My dad was a man

I still, at 52, feel like a boy


the youngest in the family


even though

I'm the one who cared for both parents unto death

& ran the fuckin show


I've never felt like the main event

I feel like I live in the margins


I've heard that beaten women

emasculate their sons


& my mum did that for me

lest I turn out like my father


It makes sense

But it's belittled me


I've never known how to throw my weight around

I'm 6 foot 2, who feels like I'm 4 foot 3


Better I was a thug


I'd have more money

& more sex


I took the life long mental health plea (medicated)

lest I go to prison for treason


Still I'm gifted in the spiritual realm

& animals, kids & old people take to me.



Published & Copyright Malachi Doyle 2024.

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