Trying to write out my pain Trying to write out my pain At least at last there’s some rain I try to mouth in green But colours are too pantone I try to nose in tea with honey But there’s chocolate inside my cup I left out food for the birds They help but I can’t really receive I started off writing self consciously With fixed rhymes But I don’t like it anymore It feel stilted & old hatted Or maybe my internal rhythm Is more instinctive like bebop But I ache so I don’t want a constant rhythm in this Rhythms move in different tempos & time signatures Like waves in the air I feel in danger of drowning In them It’s just me here & actually that’s good It’s up to me to get myself out of this hole The hole I’ve been in all my life & the hole that’s in me I have a friend who reckons It’s not that I’m lonely I just need to get laid I’m not so sure I mean yes sex is a basic need But companionship is cruc...